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过了一段时间，我发现我们能聊的话题越来越少。每次听到你和朋友聊天时，我都不能融入其中，变成我才是个外人。我开始感到不安，每次都会问你在干嘛，和男生还是女生在一起。这些无聊的问题想必你已经很厌倦了……

然后在和你聊天时，我都会小心翼翼地说话，因为害怕让你感到厌烦。我总会去猜测你每一次的想法，迎合你，不让你生气。可是我却还是办不到，每当我知道你和他们一起出去时，我很嫉妒，也很寂寞。看到某个女生一直在Facebook上tag你，我也很嫉妒，虽然你说你们只是朋友，可是我们不也是从朋友做起的么?

为什么我们彼此相爱，心里却已存在了距离。我不想放弃，也不想失去你。我们都努力了一年多了，不该让彼此的心里出现距离！我总是认为我自己不够好，我害怕会有更好的女生取代我在你心中的位置…… 面对感情，我很自卑，真的很自卑！我很抱歉，如果我的不安让你感到不快乐。我只是想再更了解你，更靠近你，为什么会变成那么遥远呢？你说我想太多，可是一个女生绝不会为了不关心，不爱的人想很多。

谢谢你，每一次都愿意解释给我听，每一次都会找我，虽然你没耐心。可是你那些小动作都足以让我再继续坚持我们的感情。对不起，我不够好，可是我愿意去改变，为了你。

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天秤座的女生脾气很臭、神经敏感、爱胡思乱想。每当做错事的时候，会想方设法道歉。当另一半不理睬你的时候，就无法集中精力做好每一件事；当另一半找回你的时候，就会像一个小孩做错事那样嚎啕大哭。

我们都没有错，没有谁比较寂寞。

不够勇敢 - 丁当

一路上转多少弯 才能看得见大海

我们都在 还上辈子的债

忙打转 忙着计算 也算不到未来

纯粹去爱 是那么难

一路上布满尘埃 风雨过后谁还在

我们都在 寂寞里取暖

对现实 习惯无奈 却对感情为难

剩多少人 能挣脱牵绊

我们都太孤单 不够勇敢

爱得茫然 爱得遗憾

让幸福走散 还庆幸自己很强悍

我们都怕承担 不够勇敢

能不能肆无忌惮

爱不过一次 地狱天堂

一路上跌跌撞撞 有人来有人离开

我们都在 狂欢里落单

越爱过 越受伤过 就越裹足不前

要为了谁 留一张底牌

我们都太孤单 不够勇敢

爱得茫然 爱得遗憾

让幸福走散 还庆幸自己很强悍

我们都怕承担 不够勇敢

能不能肆无忌惮

爱不过一次 地狱天堂

不够勇敢

我们都在 狂欢里落单

爱得茫然 爱得遗憾

让幸福走散 还庆幸自己很强悍

我们都怕承担 不够勇敢

能不能肆无忌惮

爱不过一次 地狱天堂

Currently my favourite song other than 一个人-丁当! I don't have much things to blog now, as I don't really go out.. Yesterday went to CHMS for being interview ;) EHSEH! Gonna be on newspaper soon WAKAKA *lanci mode* 

Everytime I told myself that I have to be strong without you, but end up I realize it's just me lying to myself. ALL THE TIME. I can't stop my negative thoughts on our relationship, I cares too much and think too much. What I'm really sad is that you don't really care about my feeling. I understands that you need to study, but whenever I saw you and your friends were so happy there, I felt jealous.. I know you should have your own new life there, but.. sigh.. I'm just afraid that you will slowly forget about me.. Or just treat me as an option. :/ 我们都太孤单 不够勇敢。。

寂しい

HERE, I am back! Took a long rest from blogging (actually just lazy but whateverrrrr) Thanks GuestOne for reading my blog, I thought no one care if my blog die or not.

Anyway, I would just upload pictures and tell stories :P 

Finally received my 录取书! :') Confirmed going to XiaMen!

Now I just need to do Visa and buy tickets!

Went to TimeSquare with YvonneChin!

ShareTea <3

Yvonne complained that Milk Tea is not sweet! AHAHAH 

EWW MY FRINGE EWW

Talked a lot of things to her :) Relieve stress?! 

16/06/2013 Father's Day and LY's Birthday!

Those words are written by me, cause LOF's worker doesn't know how to write Chinese. HAHAHAHAHA

  

I never did this before, so my writing like so cacat ==

Sadly, I can't celebrate LY's birthday this year.. and maybe next year too :( Two years please be fast!!! Miss him A LOTS and it's killing me!!!!!!!!!

I went to Limbang to renew my passport one day, then around evening my parents brought me to drink Vodka.. HEH. What kind of parents bring child go drink vodka/beer? 

I barely go out, unless someone ask me out. Everyday at home, being a fat panda.. I can even sleep until 1PM now == OMG. This is like just a short update I guess :)

LDR is cruel

He left for study, on the day of our 1 year and 5th month together. Everything seems so different now after he left, it's like I lose interest in everything.. Honestly, I cried, for how many nights I don't remember, but I never felt so lost before. You can say me weak, but I really afraid of losing him to other girl yknow.

On 4th June, I spent whole afternoon with him and had dinner with XY, KH, Alester, Engkeat&Stephy! During afternoon, we had Coffee Bean with Chai, had a good talk. Then we went to Mall for entertainment and foods! I always wanted to made a couple rings with him before he left, so I told him about my idea. Sadly, he doesn't likes the $5 ring(which we can put name on it), as he thinks that quality sucks.

Yep! Never thought he would mind about the ring so much that he brought me to the  other stall, and 

TAAAA-DAAAAA

He wanted to buy me A ring, then he found out that's actually a pair!

So yeap, he bought just for me. I thought he won't like it for real.. :( Then we went to Arcade to play drum! Hoho! Lose deep deep cause he chose the highest level! LANCI dao! :P 

Went to InF cyber to meet up KH and XY! Played 2 rounds of ARAM and lose both! =3= I AM SO UNLUCKY! After that Alastair came and bring us to IKURA! 

Ikura Sushi Restaurant is really nice! Their sushi are all nice quality!

We kept compared Ikura with Escapade! LOLOL! MEANIES. 

Look at Ah Kuih's lip! SO RED! ;) SMEXY!

We sent him off on 5th June.. I kept trying to hold my tears and I succeed! 

Our last pictures before he left.

Sigh.. :( I miss him now. So much.. 


MIRI TRIP ON 31TH MAY!

MET ELLY HONG!! OMG! YUAN FEN! :3 Thanks to that Milk Tea! 

RAWR!

THIS MILK TEA IS SO NICE OMG!!!!!

Bought this for LY :3

THIS IS SO CUTE!

LDR, I will never give up on us, Ting Liang Yik. So please, don't give up too! Let us try our best! 

说好了，我不哭。
就算见面的日子遥遥无期，
我会一直等你。
我相信你不会忘记，
不会忘记还有一个傻瓜在距离遥远的地方想念着你。

虽然很舍不得分开，可是我们必须朝着梦想翱翔。
直到累了，才回到彼此身边休息。
你说：你去飞吧，只要是你的梦想，我会支持你。

只要有你的支持，我会努力。而我也会支持你，我不求能天天和你在一起，只希望你能完成你的梦想。

为什么大人们都说我们不会有结果呢？难道我们就那么不堪一击吗？我很高兴在高中最后一年有你的陪伴。那些回忆是什么也取代不了的。。

我们会一直走下去，就算长期不在彼此身边，只要坚信着对方，那一天就会到来。我会证明，证明我们会战胜一切。别人怎么说，我都不介意。我爱不爱你，日久见人心！