不知道还会有谁关注着这个博客，但是我回来了。

现在的我抱着不同的心情回来了。我不会删帖，因为那些都是我的回忆。

现在的我很幸福，有能一起聚餐的同学朋友，分享秘密的闺蜜，爱我的家人。

有时候幸福总是很突然，总让人措手不及。

我觉得自己现在的生活已经很棒了。

新学期就要开始了，马上我就要以动漫社社长的身份上学了。面对这样的身份，我想我还是没准备好。加上已经大四了，估计会很忙。我很庆幸我一直都能得到某人的帮助。

来更新，只是想说我过得很好。下次更新不知道会是几时了。就这样吧~

I am home.

Hello to those who are still reading my blog! I am back! :) Due to something happened to my laptop and I didn't get to update my blog for past few months! QAQ It's my winter holiday now until February, 28days of holiday! And now i am using ipad to update my blog.. So hardcoreeeee! So there wont be any photos in this post, sorry. 

Anyway I'm leaving again on 12th :) a lots of things need to be done when I am back there. Moving hostel and sign up, hmmm. I am very happy that I can have my own room soon! No more roommates~  which is very enjoyable for me, cause it is quite uncomfortable for me when theres someone in the same room with me when I am doing my own thing hehe~ I will update again with photos and stories! Or maybe not so soon, if you're interested then please be patient, teehee

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I am glad that I get to meet some of you guys when I am back to Brunei, glad that some of you didn't change so much. :) Hope to see you guys again if there's still chances. Goodluck for those who are going overseas to study! Thats all for this post! ;) see ya blogger!!!!

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LONG BORING POST ALERT!

It has been more than one month since I came here for study. A lots of things changed after I came, I can't do anything about it but just follow the flow. My thinking towards everything now are way different from the past, yes, you can even say that I've changed myself or maybe grown up. I remembered how wavering I was on the day I came to China, XiaMen.. I kept on thinking that MAYBE, MAYBE I should just go back to Brunei or Malaysia for my University, because China is so far, so far that I suddenly scared of my future. Yet, I also non-stop telling myself that I am the one who made this choice, and there's no U-turn! 

At first I faced a lot of problems, I couldn't ride bicycle(Yes, laugh as loud as you can, but remember I can ride now), campus is too far from hostel, didn't have friends to help me. Then I met them, those Thailand friends who are really helpful, and willing to help me everything. It's really hard if we have no friends overseas. :/ We just knew each other for only 1 or 2 weeks, and they even celebrated my birthday for me, I couldn't be more thankful towards them, because we are all lonely here overseas, leaving our family and old friends and koibito. 

I always miss my high school life here, everything I do, I will always think "If only who-who-who is here, then things will be more funny...etc.." I can't forget my high school classmates, also it's one of my biggest regret that Year11B'2012 didn't have more cooperated in the past.. However I am not homesick all the time, only when I'm alone and have nothing to do then I will homesick (LOLWTF), because University life have too many club activities and school works need to complete! So there's no time for me to be sad and homesick. 

After awhile, I enjoy cycling alone, eating alone and maybe shopping alone. Maybe just that I am tired of wearing a mask everywhere and I need some space to be myself but somehow there's no place for me to do so. Having a lot of friends doesn't mean you won't feel lonely anymore. Sometime being alone is really good too.

Sometimes I do feel hopeless and really lonely here, but I forced myself to be positive as there are people who wait for me in Brunei/Malaysia. I can't let them down! So I tried my best to complete everything here, except that I might skip classes sometime HAHAHAHAHA! I want to be more mature yet I reluctant to throw away my chlidlike innocence. 我想更成熟一些，却不愿放弃童真。

有时候成长不是一种选择，而是无可奈何的。当我们学会了再难过，再愤怒也能没心没肺地笑时，其实就是在把我们身上的刺一根一根的除去，或者磨平…让自己能都更融入社会、人群。我想或许我没变，只是成熟了……

For those who read until here, thank you for caring me. (or maybe you are just bored?) We might not be contacting each other now, but you guys are always in my heart, I can never forget you guys/girls. :) We are all working hard for our future, keep it up and never give up! :) I am really sorry that for some who find me, but I didn't reply or VERY late reply, because of my signal and sometime I'm really busy! >_< When I have time, like today, I will update my blog with more special things! :D