不爱了，就不痛了。

因为爱上了，才会感到痛。那么是不是不要爱了，就没事了？

HAAAAAAAAAI. As usual! Weird chingchong opening! :D I'm really stress about the speech now. (WHY AM I STILL HERE!?) To relax my mind can or not ? :P Today is so weird for me, Shasha kept talk to me! :O I tried to answering him in a normal way, but I can't. ._. I kept smiling like idiot, and he even asked why I kept smiling. OHLUL. LIFE. 

我发现我并没有那么勇敢。我发现少了我也改变不了什么。对生命突然感到很绝望，不想活却还想努力奋斗下去。因为我想知道我的未来是怎样的。

Teacher Yong went all mental justnow. Our class is way too noisy. .__. One group quiet then other group start talking. Haih. We can't say them selfish too. Teamwork okay, and the way Teacher Yong teach also.. I went little bit down when Yimao and Kuih scolded Khal them. I don't know why also, maybe cause I'm a Libra ? I dislike fighting between a class or friends ? .__. My mood really went alittle bit down after that, no one in our class is selfish. They just don't know how to control their volume and don't know what's the right timing to speak. Like me, I'm super duper noisy too wuad. So... Hate me ? .__. 

I was a bit okay after Shasha said :"Ah, don't mind la! This teacher also got fault.." with a big smile. I guess he realise my expression after heard what Yimao them said ? ._. I know, I'm too noisy and annoying. Okay. (: I still love them. 

Just now went to Samalindang at afternoon class. I missed Physic class.. again. .__. Being crazy with those qurls, and gossiping. Dancing end at 2pm but I don't really wanna attend class, don't have the mood. Oh well. Crazy singing with qurls in computer lab, LOL GAY SHIT. Can't wait for the day staying back after competition with them! :3 

Felt like crying, but no one will care. Felt like telling, but no one will listen. Felt like hugging, but no one will hug me. Felt like giving up, but I wanna continue. 

原来最疼痛的表情是没有情绪，

原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语，
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你，
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己……

- Ja mata ne!