She is a strongest women I ever know aside my mum, she is the cutest old people I ever know.. Sometimes I'm scared of her, but I always do love her. Now, she left. I'm starting to regret that I didn't hug her when I back to Brunei. SHE is my Grandma.

The day before last day of exam, she left. I told myself not to cry, cause it's better to let her go. Until me and my bro packing our bag, he asked me a lots of questions that I can't help but burst out crying. We always loved our grandma, cause she is too kind. Her stories are always sad, that's why I said she is the strongest women I ever know. If her stories happens on me, I bet I can't even live until now. LOLYES IM THAT WEAK. 

But who can survive ? Give birth to 10kids, working until 70+ years old, cleaning house and sell vegetable for her OLD kids who are 30 and 40+ years old. She works since she were 10+ years old till now she haven't even ENJOYED her life and she left. 

I miss her calling my name with strange slang. I felt the emptiness whenever I went in to my used-to-be-grandma's house. Seeing the chair that she always sat on, is more depressing. She must be lonely after my grandpa left tho.. Sometime I don't even want to believe that she is gone mahn. I miss she complaining us when me and my cousins making noise around.. 

Starting to miss her.. again. 

-sore dewa