She is a strongest women I ever know aside my mum, she is the cutest old people I ever know.. Sometimes I'm scared of her, but I always do love her. Now, she left. I'm starting to regret that I didn't hug her when I back to Brunei. SHE is my Grandma.

The day before last day of exam, she left. I told myself not to cry, cause it's better to let her go. Until me and my bro packing our bag, he asked me a lots of questions that I can't help but burst out crying. We always loved our grandma, cause she is too kind. Her stories are always sad, that's why I said she is the strongest women I ever know. If her stories happens on me, I bet I can't even live until now. LOLYES IM THAT WEAK. 

But who can survive ? Give birth to 10kids, working until 70+ years old, cleaning house and sell vegetable for her OLD kids who are 30 and 40+ years old. She works since she were 10+ years old till now she haven't even ENJOYED her life and she left. 

I miss her calling my name with strange slang. I felt the emptiness whenever I went in to my used-to-be-grandma's house. Seeing the chair that she always sat on, is more depressing. She must be lonely after my grandpa left tho.. Sometime I don't even want to believe that she is gone mahn. I miss she complaining us when me and my cousins making noise around.. 

Starting to miss her.. again. 

-sore dewa

A day for rest.

HAI. How are you guys ? Mostly stressing for Final Exam and O level ? :P Tonight, I will love love you tonight~ Gimme everything tonight~ I can be so enjoy now, WHY ? Cause it's Chinese Paper 2 tomorrow! :D 7 days more to go. I just can't wait for exam finish. T_T Yes, I'm just that despo to enjoy! 

Combined Science are OVER. Chemistry was a mess for me. I can't even understand what is that. ;___; haih. Life ended. My mum don't really care if I study Chemistry tho, cause she knows I'm not a doctor material. Me and Stephy were so stress now a day. We kept talks non-sense and randomly laughing in class. YES, XINJIE WILL STRESS ALSO DE KAY. 

BM paper 2 was like ;

More to Chemistry paper ;

Yes, my face was like that for the whole 1hour. 

So stress that I couldn't answer all. Even BM's kefahaman I was so BLUR.. I can predict that my result for Chemistry and Bm will be like "SHIT" (': 内牛满面。

I know I still owe you guys "Lasagne's day part 2", T^T okayy.. NEXT POST la NEXT POST. If not I change my sir name to Mao. T^T I swear!!! 

I just can't wait for Exam to end. RAWR. I wanna enjoy my life so badly now! Get a lots of nightmares recently. That's suck! ): So scary and no one beside me. It makes me miss him more lolwtfrandomandnonsenses. 

-sore dewa!

BUUSYYY

I'm so busy this few days, plus FINAL exam is coming. Why I mentioned the FINAL ? Cause it's FINAL year, FINAL exam, FINAL marks, FINAL results for this year. Which equals to THIS YEAR END SOON. This is so depressing when I think about next year I'm Form5.. Time pass really fast! 

Something excited happened today, and yesterday. Excited today cause Chinese teacher told me that I got a little bit chance to go Harbin. Yenting and Shasha also got chance! OMG. HARBIN. ICELAND OKAY. OMG. If, if la if I got that LUCKY to go there.. I will cry my lung out. LOLWTF. Need to choose from a bunch of students to go there, so... 10% for me ? :P 

If I can go with him.. If.. 

Anyway, I come here to tell you guys that I'ma on Hiatus, and next post will be after EXAM which is "Lasagne Day part 2" okay ? I promises! :P 

Not to make this post BORED.

OH CALVIN BAYBEH. SO SMEXAY! ;) 

HIATUS. 

-sore dewa!