你真残忍……

快要三年了，你竟然还没有出现。我努力想起你，笑着哭泣，让自己深爱你再学着放弃。苦，也没关系。

So, I slept at 3am.. So gay! Cause I was chatting with Yoseob and Bunbun. :D 

THEY ARE MEANIES. INCLUDE ME.

HAHAHA, this two really. Yoseob suddenly find me chat in MSN about M.S who is now chasing BunBun. AHHAHAHAAHHA. Guailan muchhhhh. 

16th Sept, I went to ZH's house with my 3Baka. It was fun tho, we laughed and played around. HIS HOUSE IS AWESOME. HIS BROS ARE AWESOME.

"Bitch, what look see look see ?!"

HAHAHAHHAHA HIS FACE.WIN.ALL. 

My mum thinks ZH is gay.. OKIE.. WOW.. Life's good.. OMG, tomorrow test P.E long jump.. I hate Monday.. 

我就是喜欢你现在的样子，有时善解人意有时粗心大意。 (:

请不要轻易地改变自己。(: 

Yes, I'm so addicted to LoL. 

-sore dewa!

初恋

如果有人问我，初恋是什么味道？
那我就会回答：“黑巧克力”
因为，初恋在一开始喜欢上对方时，是甜的。
可是后来却因为感情淡了，或有距离感，或者是被迫分离……
而变成苦的。
当苦味消失时，却剩下甜味残留在口中。
当回忆起那段初恋，每个人心中总会是甜甜的。
苦，是只有在当下才会感受到的。
初恋是最难忘，也是最难取代的。
不管现在的对象有多好，你的心里还是会留有一个空位给你的初恋。
不管是有没有在一起也好，曾经喜欢过的感觉是不变的。
那种默默地看着对方，默默地为他付出，看着他的背影傻傻的微笑……
那种甜而不腻，又带点苦涩的恋爱心情总是美好的。


你的初恋又是什么味道的呢？:)

Sorry for delaying Amazing day with Amazing Lakias (2). I promise it will be the next post alright. Sumimasen. (:

If I got 49days chance to survive, would I even found three people who truly love me ? Miss me when I'm dead, cry whenever missing me ? Would I got the chance to know other than my family who is the one truly love me, and who is not ? 

After watching 49days, I understand a lots of things. Even it's your best friend, but them might not truly love you too. It's so hard to trust people nowsday. 


I'm going to Kuching this Sunday. I think I better finish the BBQ post before I go. -__- If not I gonna delay like 2834973 days. I haven't even start study yet, shit la I don't want die in Test2! T^T wuu.. 

- sore dewa!

Random post.

I smiled like idiot by viewing back my blog's history.. NO. YOU! DON'T READ BACK! I was so innocent back then. << Thefuck perasaan. LOL no kidding, I found less badwords at 2009's. .__. but now.. LOL ohwells. :P 

http://loveeispain.blogspot.com/2010/08/blog-post_23.html

Mostly that post ^ above makes me laugh a lots. LOL. I even use xxx to replace the badword. Aishh. I was so innocent, and now like.. =__= 

http://loveeispain.blogspot.com/2011/06/say-hi-to-my-new-room-mates-3-kk-trip.html

ahh, when I on the phone with him ahh.. I still can feel the NERVOUS now. .__. Time pass reallty fast and smexay. Now is already August. .__. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZNFMOR3AxE

A imba song sing by a new singer. -_- This song stuck in my head = bad thing. My whole family felt annoyed when I sang it. Cause it's really annoying. LOL. 

I'm here just to spent my time wisely. LOL while waiting XY eating his dinner. Then we go play LoL. >< 

Byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

很爱很爱你 原版

让你等了那么久真对不起

i'm sorry that you waited for me for so long

我又突然有急事去工作了

suddenly something important happened again so i had to go to work

我们一直不在一起

we always can't be together

这使你觉得很寂寞吧

you feel lonely don't you

无法见面的时候 能从电话里听见

when we can't meet each other i can hear from the phone

你的声音变得沙哑

your voice is hoarse

很久没见之后的相逢

long time no see and finally we meet each other

你的笑容总会充满在我的心里

your smile is always in my heart

我察觉到了 你在我心里已经如此地重要

i realised you are that important in my heart

想说我爱你 但这种话我说不出口

i want to say that i love you but i couldn't

我只相信你说的那些话语

i only believe what you says

一直等到现在的我

i waited till now for so long

只是你的笑脸 似乎我就难以忘却

even only your smiling face i can never forget

因为我想一直留在你身边

because i want to stay by your side

在你的身边微笑着 我觉得很自在

i feel so comfortable when i smile beside you

想说我爱你 但这种话我说不出口

i want to say that i love you but i couldn't

我觉察到了 你在我心里已经如此地重要

i realised you are that important in my heart

想说我爱你 但这种话我说不出口

i want to say that i love you but i couldn't

Such a nice touching japanese song. (': Gonna put this in my blog. :3 When I'm not lazyy! I likes the chinese version's lyric more. :3 

想为你做件事

让你更快乐的事

好在你的心中

埋下我的名字

求时间趁著你

不注意的时候

悄悄地把这种子

酿成果实

我想她的确是

更适合你的女子

我太不够温柔

优雅成熟懂事

如果我退回到

好朋友的位置

你也就不再需要

为难成这样子

很爱很爱你所以愿意

舍得让你往更多幸福的地方飞去

很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情

我才安心

看著她走向你那幅画面多美丽

如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜

地球上两个人

能相遇不容易

做不成你的情人我仍感激

很爱很爱你所以愿意

不牵绊你飞向幸福的地方去

很爱很爱你只有让你

拥有爱情我才安心

很爱很爱你所以愿意

不牵绊你飞向幸福的地方去

很爱很爱你只有让你

拥有爱情我才安心

很爱很爱你所以愿意

不牵绊你飞向幸福的地方去

很爱很爱你只有让你

拥有爱情我才安心

This song sing out all my feelings, so yeahh. :'3 I wanna try sing the Japanese version. :O 

Everything went RAWR since yesterday Stephy texted me. We knew it long time ago, but it's so sudden for us. .__. Fuck my life for can't be there tomorrow afternoon. Due to it's chinese ghost month now, my parent was like BLAHBLAHBLAH about it. -- 

- Ja mata-ne!

天天绝人之路

#np Beast - On rainy day. 

Okay, I wish it's really raining now. So hot sia. .__. I gonna type some random things, so you may skip the chingchanchong parts if you want. ;) 

《他爱上了一个永远都不会爱回他的女孩，她爱上了一个永远都不会爱回她的男孩。》

“欸，你喜欢谁啊？” 女孩用笑脸掩饰着眼神里的悲伤。

“啊？怎么突然这么问？” 男孩一脸疑问的看着女孩。

“哈哈，就想知道罢了嘛！好啦！快点告诉我！” 女孩嬉皮笑脸的看着男孩，可是双手却不断的颤抖，似乎害怕男孩的答案。

“好啦！就是 XXX 啦！” 男孩满脸通红的看着女孩说着。

“啊……是啊，她的确很美……” 女孩轻轻地对着自己说。

“什么？” 男孩靠近了女孩一点，想要听清楚女孩说了什么。

“啊！不-不！没事！哈哈！” 

当女孩说完时，女孩注意到男孩并没有看着她，反而傻傻地看着前方不远的另一个女孩。这时的男孩，眼神透漏出了对那个女孩的爱意和无奈。无奈，是因为另一个女孩正挽着另一个男孩的手，满脸羞涩却又洋溢幸福的感觉。

“喂！你看到眼睛要凸出来了哦！哈哈哈哈！” 女孩对着男孩挥挥手，然后想尽办法掩饰心中的哀伤。

“啊？有吗？哈哈！你也太夸张了吧！” 男孩知道到自己的行为被发现，马上尴尬的对着女孩笑。

女孩不语、只是微微笑。然后女孩默默地看着男孩，心却淌着血。她明明知道男孩是不会喜欢她，可是她却还是去问男孩喜欢谁。她，只为了让自己死心。

“喂！笨蛋，我先走了。你慢慢看吧！！” 说完女孩掉头就走马上离开男孩。

随着脚步越走越快，背对着男孩的女孩眼中原本一直强忍的泪却一滴一滴地滴下来。原来最痛的还是爱上了一个永远都不会爱回你的人。

“欸！你！算了……” 男孩傻眼地看着女孩离去的身影，然后转眼又看向另一个女孩。男孩完全把目光放在了另一个女孩上，然后又轻轻地叹息着。男孩心里想着，他算什么？那个他深爱的女孩根本就不会发现到男孩的存在啊，想着想着男孩不自觉地眼眶红了起来，紧握拳头是为了忍住眼泪，可是泪滴却不断滴落……

已哭得泣不成声的女孩躲在被窝里，想到男孩看着喜欢的人的表情，女孩的心如刀割般的痛却说不出口。这时，男孩和女孩都决定……

男孩 ： 放弃吧，她是不会喜欢我的。

女孩 ： 放弃吧，他是不会喜欢我的。

男孩和女孩都为了爱的人，最后选择放弃。

男孩 ： 只要看着她幸福，我就满足了。

女孩：只要默默地看着他，我就满足了。

世界就是这样的不公平，明明很爱他却不能拥有他。在我的身边就有这样的例子！深深地喜欢她，却不被她喜欢…… 不过我认识的这个男生，很勇敢！大家为他加油吧！;) 喜欢一个人不容易啊~ :3 

我得好好加油了！

WenBin's composition ：“天天绝人之路”

Me : HAHAHA NOT 天无绝人之路 mehh ?

Wuimin : AHLORH! *took a ren pen and circle the wrong word*

We all : AHAHAHHAHA, 天天绝人之路酱悲哀 meh!!? 

I gonna play LoL soon! AWWYEAH! :3 Haven't patched my Maple. .__. Planned to go out with my 3baka this Friday! :3 Wish everything goes well! ;) NO BACKFIRE MAHN. IF NOT I CREY. 

Have to watch 49days now! ;) A sibeh nice Korean Drama intro by Stephy! ;) 

OH HAI THUR, AUGUST.

- sore dewa!

习惯就好。

她很美，很可爱，很天真，很聪明。她拥有了一切我想要的，就连我喜欢的人……也喜欢她。我不恨她，因为她真的很完美，完美到连我也赞叹。有谁不会喜欢她呢？我很羡慕，羡慕到我不知该如何面对她。

我选择说谎，因为这样他才不会感到困扰。

The shittiest thing is #libra rather ourselves be hurt than see others get hurt.

说谎，并不难。

Sometimes #libra are so stubborn, they need an external party to help them get it and give up.

我宁愿自己哭得死去活来，也不愿看到他为我皱眉。

#Libra tell themselves to wake up earlier the next day. And the next day. It just doesn't happen

#Libras don't like people butting into their conversations.

#Libras are social and entertaining and most likely to make you simile! ;D

A #Libra can pull a smile out of anyone, even the most grumpy person in the entire building.
‎#Libra has a problem being honest with their emotions

伪装是为了保护自己。
说谎是为了保护他人。

我会放手，当做一切没发生过。

- sayonara.

Fading away.

All the happiness are fading away. Now. 

如果能讓我實現一個願望，那我想把所有快樂與幸福都鎖在我的盒子里。

快樂消失地太快了，我想把它抓在手心裡不讓它逃走。可是当手伸到快乐时，快乐却不见了。

幸福对我来说，是个遥不可及的梦。有时候并不觉得自己在当下很幸福，可是转过头看时，幸福原来早已在身边悄悄地陪着我。

幸福，这次我会好好把握你、照顾你、爱护你、让你过着美满的日子。所以，待在我身边好不好？别再离开了，没有了你我真的活不下去啊！回来吧！！

Tired tired tired. Speech ah! WHY U SO HARD ?! Memorising script is really torturing me. Finally took a nap just now. ALIVEEEE BAYBEHH! So, I haven't memorise the last paragraph. OH. Dieee. Today's morning was great, being fun with them as usual. Near afternoon go PPOOOOFFFFF. 

Keng and Calvin are now my sons. :3 THE CHINAH MAHN. Now he called me "Mami/Mom" HAHAHAHAHAHA SO GAY MAHN. Was waiting for teacher to inform me for the measuring shit. SHE CHEATED MY FEELING. Today not even have. ): 

Someone thinks that Shasha is XueYi. HAHAHAHAHAHAH I DIED. NOT. NOT HIM OKAY. *laugh till pengsan* No, really ? XueYi ? OMG. HAHAAHAHA! 

Nowsday Shasha kept talk to me. REALLY SIBEH HAPPY OKAY. I found back the feeling of "Just a piece of candy, also can make you happy for a whole day." 知足！(: Even a smile, a hi and bye also enough. Maybe we no need to talk for the whole day, just simple things.. are enough for me for now. :D 

We are not robot. We are just a normal.. girls with normal wishes..

贪婪是人类的最可恶之处。

-Sore dewa!

说谎，是为了掩饰我的悲伤。
说谎，是为了不让你看到我的脆弱。
说谎，是为了不让你知道我有多爱你。
说谎，是为了让自己彻彻底底地死心。
说谎，是为了让自己以后不会后悔。
说谎，是为了不让朋友们担心自己会过得不好。
说谎，是以为自己还可以过的很好。
一切用微笑带过，总比说真心话让自己的面具剥落的好。


我承认我是个说谎专家。我说谎可以说的面不改色，可以说的好像真的一样。我不喜欢朋友勉强的笑容，可是自己却不知勉强的笑了几次。我很有心计，是为了保护我自己。我忘了，敞开了几次胸怀，最后却遭到背叛的后果。我可以笑着谈我被背叛的曾经，因为眼泪早就干了。


最失望的时刻，莫过于自己戴着勉强的笑容，可是却没有任何人注意到。我很注意别人的笑容，却忘了怎么真心的微笑。我不希望别人对我的印象是“软弱，容易哭泣”的女生，我的坚强也绝对不是装出来的！


笑，是要让人感受到快乐。不是吗？
可是我却……再也感受不到那种感觉了。

I better just shut up.

My dad's shirt.

 Once upon a time, he hide it somewhere, and one day.. my bro don't have shirt to wear at home, and he FOUND IT and wore it. Until me and my dad realise.. WE LAUGHED TILL DIE. 

Once upon a time, there's a lil girl named Viel Prawn. 

She always being cool and handsome(only with that hair style)..

Until Brandon touched her hair.. 

Sometimes, I just really need a stranger to talk about how I feels now. Cause stranger never find it annoying when you just EXPRESS all your feeling to them. I know, some of my friends find it very annoying when I talked about Shasha, this is why I just keep quiet about him and be hyper or gay. I'm trying my best to lower down the chance of talking about Shasha now. It's better just keep it to myself. No one likes it when I talk about Shasha. I'm too annoying. 

"SHAME ON YOU" - EJ. 

I always got a feeling. A feeling of tell him how much I likes him and how I feel for him. I can't stop this feeling, this feeling keep flow out from my mind.. .__. I really don't want.. It's not the time yet, but my mind keep wanting me to confess now. I want him.. all of him. I want he belong to me. Only me. 

OH LOOK. 

They're blowing. (;<

我很嫉妒，嫉妒他們。她們有一群很好的朋友，互相諷刺，互相開玩笑，我從沒看過她們傷心吵架過。

我對現在的狀況很滿足了。我很高興還會有人願意做我的朋友。

只是，我好像並沒有一個屬於我的地方，讓我傾訴，讓我發洩，讓我開心，歡笑，流淚和依靠的地方。

AHHHH! WHY NOT CLEAR! )': This is Soon Ai and Tiong Chong's mixture okay ? Face = Soon Ai but Personality ====== TIONGCHONG. -.- 100% Tiong Chong okay ? I'm serious. D: Me and Viel ever tried to chase him to get his picture.. All he did was SCREAMING, and randomly throwing things to us. TIONGCHONG, WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOUR LIL COUSIN ? 

I MELTED. :33

- sore dewa!

好想告诉你…

君に届け,

叶わない恋でもいい,

伤ついてもいい,

何度でも伝えたい.

君が好きで,

眠れない夜でもいい,

朝が来なくてもいい,

何度でも伝えたい.

((: Totally my feelings now.

Poker face.

I'M BACK BLOGGER. 

*slap blogger's arse* 

EXAM IZ PINISH. I IZ HAPI. 

Not really. I'm still busy as usual. Tattoo, Speech, Debate, HSK, China History, what more ? The debate want, I just knew it justnow. :/ Had meeting with teachers and students! :O I'm shocked that I had been chosen for it. IT'S LIKE :

ME ? YOU MEANT ME ? IN THIS TEAM TOO ? 

So... okay la. :P Gain exp right ? :P I wants to play maple liao! TEEHEE! :3 Time for hang out and all that mayyynnn! :D I want to go out with 3 baka! :P Which is Yimao, Kuih and shasha! :P For those who ever watch Maid-Sama, you should know 3baka! :P MUAHAHAHA. Shasha start to watch anime liao. MWAHAHAHAH! :P 

有时候沉默比什么都来得重要。

因为说再多也没用，没听众。


Currently in a fucking bad mood. :/ 安静就好了，何必去解释？累了，照惯例努力清醒着。这首歌说的还不是我的感觉嘛。我有时候觉得我是为了别人而活，不是自己。参加多一点的活动，让自己劳累，还不是为了逃避？我不是女超人，我不会飞也不会打击犯罪，请你放过我吧！光鲜亮丽的外表，背后却是坑坑洞洞的过往。

- sore dewa

Hide and seek.

I hide my feeling for you, and wish one day you will seek it. 

Today not bored, due to Yvonne came my house and bake cake with me. It's awwwesome. Don't ask me to upload it, cause it looks suck.  ._______. We enjoyed the moment already can liao la. :P 不要酱计较. We discussed about everything. This is what happen when two Libra meet. :3 

Thanks to Yvonne, my blog ain't so quiet now. :P I likes music. HOHO. Seriously, I just finish my chinese works nia mahn.. Gawd.. I'm scared of my test one like shit now. .______. The debate also, I scared I will suddenly 口吃 then lose. :/ I really don't want to lose at first round tho. :O 

I really 真的 banar banar don't want go to school. T^T 

为什么初恋会这么难忘呢？可见初恋在我心中占了很大的位置。

GAH. Accidently fall in love. I saw my archive, this year January got more posts than usual. ._. 57 in 31 days, pro ? 

You’re lucky if a guy loves you for who you are. He understands that you’re not perfect and couldn’t ask for more but you. He understands your lazy attitude,crazy mood swings and sensitive side. Yes, He may not be the perfect boyfriend for you, But for him, You’re the girl he’s been dreaming of all his life.

- sore dewa.

一時感想

有時候會想爲什麽我總是遇不到你，見不到你就算我在路上遊蕩，我還是見不到你。是註定還是命運作弄？沒想到轉眼間，我們已兩年半沒見了。各自過著獨自的生活，有自己的人生。可是爲什麽我總是認定你就是我的未來？我已厭倦了沒有你的日子。回來好不好？我開始想你了。如果那一天，我們再見面時間會不會倒退一點？會不會像那天我和你第一次見面？天空那麼的藍，風輕輕送。如果你知道當初我的理由只不過是個虛無的謊言，你會原諒我嗎？你的微笑真的照亮了我的世界。你可能遗忘了我们之间的种种一切。可是我还是固執地等着你回来，我不敢在愛上別人。




就怕你回來時，找不到我……

Billik Hantu.

Your Daily Horoscope

Today rethink all the social values you take at face value. Like the rest of us, you learned them at an early age and accepted them unthinkingly. Established concepts of propriety are especially deserving of consideration. After hearing for years about all those things that "just aren't done," isn't it refreshing to think that maybe they should be done after all?

Those horoscope's thing on facebook is quite nice and true. OHLUL. 

Today was fun! UNEXPECTED! :3 Woke up at 6am, feeling like bullshit. -.- 8am Tarian Asli, but teacher late and go early. OHWELL. She is always like that. ._.

Irene and Stephy were not going with us. Which make us think like it gonna suck so bad without si Irene. OH YOU KNOW, we love it when she so takut and scream. JAHAT. :P 

Photos will show you how fun it is ;

CUTE LA THIS TWO! :3

Me, forever alone..

My sexay arsee! :3

Found out that this hantu actually very handsome. OUHH. :3

My legs shake like shit when I saw the door. -.-

OUH.

HEHE. We had fun tuu. :3 

For those didn't go, YOU GUYS SHOULD REGRET. ohwell. First time went in the Billik Hantu, we all were OVER-REACT! Scream like shit mahhhnnn! Second times we were like "STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP, can we take a photo with you guys ? :3 " But actually legs shaking too. hehe.

There are 3 stupid girls, we stop to take photo, they stop and screaming beside us too. SPOIL la tu! -_- Kns want. Tsktsk. 

TUMBLR, PLEASE FUCKING FEED THOSE TUMBEASTS. IF NOT I GONNA SUE YOU FOR ANIMAL ABUSE.

-_- Ji ehhh! 

Use a picture to end this post! ;)

Sharon commented : "XinJie is that you ?!"

"Nope, sorry. I don't know who are you talking about."

HAHAHA, SHE JUST MADE ME LAUGH! Awwwww, RON RON~ <3 

- sore dewa.