OH HAI.

Konbanwa. 

I'm here.

Again.

Since I might not blog for Thursday(which is tomorrow), so I'm here even though I'm tired. ._. 

This morning got a lots, A LOTS of epic shit stuff happened. Me, Stephy, Kuih, Chinaman and Shasha talked about A LOTS of random stuff. Oh well, we cute that's why. I kept called Chinaman, My Son. This is kinda gay but I like it. BAHAHA!

At first me and Chinaman talk about the one we ... loike. Yes, loike. :P Then we were discussing about how to purpose la, all that. Then..

Me : Hahaha! Good luck son! 

Son : Haha yay! You too! *look at Shasha*

Me : LOL! Can don't !? 

Then we talked with Kuih and Shasha. 

Me : Haih, 儿子啊，我们是单亲家庭！不需要爸爸的！

Son : Ah ?! HAHA!

Kuih : No no no, Shasha 做你的新老公啦！

Shasha : EH NO! *paiseh face on*

Kuih : Chinaman! 你要爸爸是不是？

Son : 是咯！

Me : 不用啦！单亲嘛不是很strong! ;)

Son : 哇！哪里strong?！

Kuih : 啊吧！快点叫傻傻，爸爸！

Son : *look at shasha* 爸爸！

Shasha : WAHHHH!

Me : WAHLAO. LOSE ALL! 

Then I forgot what we said about again, Kuih just said something like "XinJie break with the first husband then marriage Shasha again ah!" Then I just said like : "HAHA! NO! And Chinaman&Calvin also not my real kids! I pick them up from Rubbish bin!" 

Chinaman's expression : )): oh! FINE! 

HAHAHA! After had so much random chat with him, I found out his SO MANY weird/random/stupid expression mahn! No, you still no need father okay! LOL! We were really high at the morning. Laugh a lots and speak random alots. OH, now even my son also watch Kimi Ni Todoke already! AWWYEAH! He likes that anime too! LIKE THE MOTHER OF COURSE! ;) 

Thanks to Z.O! Now my life screwed up. I was really so so so STRESS about forgot attend the meeting. Then Yimao told me what happened when teacher asked about why I didn't attend. )': GG.COM.MY/XINJIEGG

Wish will have fun when the actual day of Jungle walk la. ._. I'm so scared of Friday now. RTB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SPEECH! ><

Might crazy memorise new script tomorrow. Not gonna blog! ._.

- sore dewa!

Fading away.

All the happiness are fading away. Now. 

如果能讓我實現一個願望，那我想把所有快樂與幸福都鎖在我的盒子里。

快樂消失地太快了，我想把它抓在手心裡不讓它逃走。可是当手伸到快乐时，快乐却不见了。

幸福对我来说，是个遥不可及的梦。有时候并不觉得自己在当下很幸福，可是转过头看时，幸福原来早已在身边悄悄地陪着我。

幸福，这次我会好好把握你、照顾你、爱护你、让你过着美满的日子。所以，待在我身边好不好？别再离开了，没有了你我真的活不下去啊！回来吧！！

Tired tired tired. Speech ah! WHY U SO HARD ?! Memorising script is really torturing me. Finally took a nap just now. ALIVEEEE BAYBEHH! So, I haven't memorise the last paragraph. OH. Dieee. Today's morning was great, being fun with them as usual. Near afternoon go PPOOOOFFFFF. 

Keng and Calvin are now my sons. :3 THE CHINAH MAHN. Now he called me "Mami/Mom" HAHAHAHAHAHA SO GAY MAHN. Was waiting for teacher to inform me for the measuring shit. SHE CHEATED MY FEELING. Today not even have. ): 

Someone thinks that Shasha is XueYi. HAHAHAHAHAHAH I DIED. NOT. NOT HIM OKAY. *laugh till pengsan* No, really ? XueYi ? OMG. HAHAAHAHA! 

Nowsday Shasha kept talk to me. REALLY SIBEH HAPPY OKAY. I found back the feeling of "Just a piece of candy, also can make you happy for a whole day." 知足！(: Even a smile, a hi and bye also enough. Maybe we no need to talk for the whole day, just simple things.. are enough for me for now. :D 

We are not robot. We are just a normal.. girls with normal wishes..

贪婪是人类的最可恶之处。

-Sore dewa!

不爱了，就不痛了。

因为爱上了，才会感到痛。那么是不是不要爱了，就没事了？

HAAAAAAAAAI. As usual! Weird chingchong opening! :D I'm really stress about the speech now. (WHY AM I STILL HERE!?) To relax my mind can or not ? :P Today is so weird for me, Shasha kept talk to me! :O I tried to answering him in a normal way, but I can't. ._. I kept smiling like idiot, and he even asked why I kept smiling. OHLUL. LIFE. 

我发现我并没有那么勇敢。我发现少了我也改变不了什么。对生命突然感到很绝望，不想活却还想努力奋斗下去。因为我想知道我的未来是怎样的。

Teacher Yong went all mental justnow. Our class is way too noisy. .__. One group quiet then other group start talking. Haih. We can't say them selfish too. Teamwork okay, and the way Teacher Yong teach also.. I went little bit down when Yimao and Kuih scolded Khal them. I don't know why also, maybe cause I'm a Libra ? I dislike fighting between a class or friends ? .__. My mood really went alittle bit down after that, no one in our class is selfish. They just don't know how to control their volume and don't know what's the right timing to speak. Like me, I'm super duper noisy too wuad. So... Hate me ? .__. 

I was a bit okay after Shasha said :"Ah, don't mind la! This teacher also got fault.." with a big smile. I guess he realise my expression after heard what Yimao them said ? ._. I know, I'm too noisy and annoying. Okay. (: I still love them. 

Just now went to Samalindang at afternoon class. I missed Physic class.. again. .__. Being crazy with those qurls, and gossiping. Dancing end at 2pm but I don't really wanna attend class, don't have the mood. Oh well. Crazy singing with qurls in computer lab, LOL GAY SHIT. Can't wait for the day staying back after competition with them! :3 

Felt like crying, but no one will care. Felt like telling, but no one will listen. Felt like hugging, but no one will hug me. Felt like giving up, but I wanna continue. 

原来最疼痛的表情是没有情绪，

原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语，
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你，
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己……

- Ja mata ne!